Chapter 1 (My salvation story episode 4)

 I didn't pull out this time because I wanted to be sure I could impregnate a lady, I had a spiritual mother at this time; I spoke to her and she convinced me of not allowing the lady to adopt the child but the day she was counselling me the lady was right at the hospital intended to flush out the child, during the counselling session she was calling me but i couldn't pick because an elderly woman was speaking to me also I was already loving the idea of becoming a father, Then after i called back and she told me she flushed the child out already I felt really bad for the first time it got at me real big. You can't imagine! 

2018, I relocated with my Friend Aba to Elepe it was here my desire for God grew more. I am not the type that likes a church that is crowded I have the mentality of growing with my church, so I came across an incomplete (Building) church, became a member, joined the choir______participated in all I could but i was still struggling in the secret(Masturbation, lust, fraud, desperation and evil thoughts) I really wish to please God that desire just came, I really didn't know how it happened. It's exciting whenever my client gives me some money and I could contribute to programs/progress in the church. 

A year after, I left Elepe I came back home to my Mum I was gradually despising scamming(Yahoo), I wanted to do things right, I then put all my eggs in one basket (Music), but on one faithful day (on a Wednesday ) i was at home as usual when a brother from the first floor came to invite me for a program in his church, I told him let's see how it goes but then he came again on Friday he brought with him (soft drink and gala) I was really famished but the gala and soft drink helped out, i had no choice but to follow him to his church on that Saturday evening..... I met with a half-caste female pastor instantly the Yahoo boy in me rose from the death straight. 

I started thinking, strategizing but something in me kept restraining me from doing any ungodly thing; she asked me if I would come around the next day which is a Sunday I told no because I will also be attending my church. The next day I was there, I realised I was tired of things done and things I see and how people were, in my church I noticed a lot i saw a lot of misdeed, it's place where fraudsters are welcomed, where prostitution is seen as norms, where elders don't tell the truth because they feel they might go hungry if they do and that's for those who knowns the truth, i was tired of all that; i just knew the church was failing and i wouldn't want to be a part of that. 

When I got there, I loved the atmosphere maybe because it was air conditional all through but I wasn't feeling spiritual alive; like I said the Hymns in my church are Spirit filled. After the service in the adult church I met with her and we spoke in her car for a while and she asked me what I felt about the service and if I would love to be a part of the family, I told her the service was okay but I don't fit in that was my response to her, she asked why ? I was like i can't cope amidst this people (They all look rich and dress rich) but I am the opposite of what i see, but then i went to the youth church with the brother from my compound and a lady, this lady was just feeling me and telling to use my brain.

I was like what is this lady saying, not until when I got to the youth parish and I totally understood, I was like a super star when I stepped in all eyes were on me, a thought came....... how can i utilise this opportunity ? The lady kept telling use your brain see those guys they do this they do that, my boss has a church of her own but has a man friend here so many of this words she was saying to me but something within me kept restraining me from accepting those thought. Later that day first time comers were welcomed I came out met with people, prayed and left feeling like a star boy. 

The experience I had that day prompted my decision to become a member of the new family in faith, they had their daily devotions which really helped me to become familiar with the scripture, a read and study in the morning and at night then i will speak in tongues for an hour, most times I will have stop cause it was looking like i was seeing something or something was coming close to me and I couldn't bear it i had to end the prayer. 

My heart was not right with the Lord like it should, I still had worldly desires I wanted to be a musician superstar, I want to break all the unbreakable records set by the old dawgs that was my concern I was still recording; I thought to blend my sound in a way to preach Christ. My half-caste friend was always checking up on me to know my plan and growth, I told her about my plans to further my education and she was willing to help. Within a few months I already had a cell I was handling, I went to check out new members at home and encourage them to come to church, i was part of the follow up team I loved it the part i love the most is when i pray with them and encourage them that God won't fail and they believed. 

But I was still struggling, I too like women and for this church they get plenty; most of this ladies pass me for levels some studied aboard and me never finish school and I even no get money. there is this one I really like and I know she likes me too but I got intimidated by her accomplishments, I couldn't stand it. I want to date as many as I can but I couldn't cause I thought this wasn't the reason why I was here in the first place I then discovered a new talent I take beautiful pictures with my iPhone and people recommend me and told me to join the media youth team.

It was during this period, I determined within me I don't want to ever smoke again the preaching and people I now meet were already affecting me positively but I still kept those that would influence me negatively around, for a month I didn't take a blunt and i had a friend around who was always smoking; mum wasn't around at this time she was in Gambia, so it was just me and Yemi. But then Dominic got signed to a record label we were both into music and he came around with the news and wanted me to celebrate with him, and then I took a stick of weed just to make him believe i was happy for him and truly i was but this begin a new chapter in my life.

Watch out for the next chapter

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