Chapter 3 (My salvation story episode 1)

 My sincere apologies to my readers. I didn’t mean to go blank all this while. It has been a journey beyond my understanding—a lot has happened and is still happening—but to the glory of God, we are back.


Let me share with you some of the things I learnt during my time offline. I am married now, to the glory of God, to a beautiful damsel (God-sent). She used to be someone I counseled many years back—2021 precisely. When I first met her, I saw God’s glory (her beauty), but she hadn’t yet come into a true relationship with Him (God). She was operating on a transactional method with God: she wanted God to give her things, and she would give Him her best in return, as she often said.

So, I decided not to be moved by what I saw physically, but to focus on showing her the God that I know.


In 2024, we met again—both single this time. I couldn’t help but admire God’s beauty in her, but I was still focused on preaching the God I knew to her. This time, she was willing to accept Him because she was fed up with life. She had tried everything, but to no avail. After a while, feelings began to grow. I told her how I felt, and she told me how she felt too.


I knew that if I was going to have this lady, I must be married to her—not the paparazzi kind of marriage, but one where her parents gives their consent. As the urge and feelings for her increased beyond measure, unfortunately, I couldn't wait till when we were married— I knew my wife before I knew her. 


I became bitter about what I had done. I questioned myself: What kind of man of God am I? Why would something like this happen through me? This shouldn’t be me. I am better than this. I preached against sex before marriage—why did I fall victim?

I almost went mad, this is the work of the devil. You know those kinds of thoughts. But then I realized something: some mistakes are God’s intentionality. I am not saying God makes mistakes; I am only saying that what you call a mistake can still be used for God’s purpose. Don’t kill yourself over it. Mistakes are allowed, even in growth.

(1 Corinthians 1:25 — “For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength.” NIV)


I made confessions to some fathers in the faith about what I had done, and I was ready to take full responsibility. Then the battle of the mind begin: You’re finished. Why did you leave Sister Lagbaja? This one has come to destroy your calling. You’re a failure. You should leave her and get a godly girl.

But I kept reciting the Word of God to myself: That is not my portion. I will do what is right. I am not finished. I am not a failure. This lady is not an agent of the devil. I will not leave her—we will grow together. The devil will be put to shame concerning our lives.


The feeling that I had made a mistake was huge, but I journeyed in faith. This is the woman for me. I am not going back, but forward. no money for marriage rites, but we went to her hometown regardless, "Ekiti" A brother sent me ₦50,000 for our first visit to get the list of what would be needed, and to meet with her father just to let him know my intentions..


We got there, and her father gave me the list. He told us not to get everything, enlisted what is most needed we had 31 items but was told to bring 18. Though this was still worrisome Where Would I Get The Money To Get All This ?. 


This is not just a story.

It is a revelation.


Watch out for the next episode.

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