Chapter 1 (My salvation story episode 2)

I became focused with music and it became my only means to success. It all started in the year 2011 when i relocated with my mum to a new apartment at Ikosi, Ketu, (Balogun oyero), I used to believe I was going to be a great footballer. Playing football was the only thing I knew how to do best but then the scripture said it rightly - "Prov.19.21" You can make many plans, but the LORD's purpose will prevail. (NLT). 

My health became the bridge between football and music.

In 2023 I discovered i had "asthma" but the doctor said it wasn't a chronic one and that wasn't the first time of hearing about it i have just being waving it off and rejecting negative pronouncements or declaration regarding my life. Several years of unbearable moment there are times I couldn't sleep at night issues with breathing and most times I could not stand straight I will have to bend over. I remember the last scenario when mum was still alive I asked her a question out of pain which was "I hope I Won't Die of This"?

You cannot imagine the look on her face _#Smile_ I can still remember her look even till now.

Why would a boy like myself be going through all this struggles and pain I had good intentions I just wanted to make mama proud take care of my family and people around me why this hardship!? Why this pain! _Only God know I guess._

I went with Mum to Ondo town did some local medication but still nothing changed I was told it is an ailment my grandfather had, we did all we could or know but still nothing changed. 

There was this day it started again and I couldn't bear the pain I said a word I heard someone tell me *" _If you're the God that made the heavens and earth deliver me from this pain!" and instantly my heartbeat became stable I was shocked like you are!_ "?*.

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Years back, while I was still a teenage i use to do strange things but it seemed normal to me "*I could pray for it to rain and pray it doesn't*".

I have a big aunty that really doesn't tolerate nonsense, She is well disciplined and has instilled fear(fright) in me. There is this TV series we see then, titled "Paloma and Diego" on this faithful day there was no light( electricity )and I was scared she would be in search of my fault that day I had to pray for the electricity to be restored the word I uttered was *_"God said let there be light"_* immediately the electricity was restored i was so happy because I wasn't going to be reasoned. #smile. 

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Love was introduced to me as sex the experience started at the age of 5 the only time I know a lady loves me is when sex is involved I grew up with this mentality which did affect me alot I remember aunties, hood sisters, friend sisters, that i had sex with in this wise. 

I also practiced homosexuality though I not attracted to male but it was an habit I inculcated along the line, I became an addict having constant sex with different ladies. In a particular year at a particular time, I was having sex almost everyday I was ignorant to the fact that I was destroying myself and getting my system used to a bad system. The lady I was having this fun with left I was left alone to masturbate. Masturbation got into the picture i was always watching pornographs and all I wanted to do was to do what I was seeing the first day I tried it I wasn't cool with it until a friend came over while I was watching porn then i saw him doing to himself what I thought was wrong he went as far as encouraging me to do the same and I yielded to the advise since then my life never remained the same *I became worst*

*_The devil is what he is_ according to the book of (Genesis 3 vs 1)_* 

I masturbate everyday _why was I masturbating every day? _what about the ladies?_ . This season I become scared couldn't construct a good sentence and shy to talk to a lady and i had no girlfriend I was always satisfying myself through masturbation.

After many years in the school of masturbation I was given a project to carry out with was titled 'molestation'. I got tired of me satisfying myself through masturbation i needed something to enhance it, i started taking advantage of young girls I will call them in whenever I am horny and wanted to discharge I will massage my penis on their thigh just to derive pleasure I did this for several years the devil had a grip on me; I went as far as peeping on ladies when they are bathing to satisfy my urge it was too much for me to bear I could do anything for the pleasure, I got tired of such life I would pray in tears to God to save me several time I cry to God for help after masturbating I couldn't help myself it seem something was controlling me my sense of reasoning was awakened tho but to no avail. I fasted and prayed but nothing changed I sort help from believers but it was yielding to nothing I was wallowing in sin of uncleanliness. 

Could it be my wrong doings from the beginning that brought about the sickness, hardship and reason why things were not working in my favour and on my behalf?, Mmm, I know God is a God of peace and not of confusion.

my mates were in various schools, some in a place learning a new skill but has for me I was just about the music since school wasn't working i had to focus on something else though it didn't start off in this manner I was a bright child and a blessing to my parents, they were always asked "are you sure you gave birth to this boy"? I was brilliant until things took a negative turn in class 3 - 4 I couldn't explain I don't know how it all happened. _The table turned._ I started struggling with studies i was the least in class when graded I repeated during my elementary stages but since it was a private school I was promoted, my class teachers did try to help but nothing changed.  

I remember days in My Dream Nursery and Primary School I start schooling there at class 4 i looked sharp in my uniform but there was nothing up in the skull the only thing I was known well for was playing football and maybe the cutest in school.  

Watch out for the next episode

Thanks for being patient and thanks for the Love.

Beloved of Yahweh 🌹